This evening my daughter and I will start counselling together, last night is the first night she has stayed since she walked out on 8 Feb. We had a lovely evening just like they had always been up until the night she walked out.
I want her to come home so badly but a couple of comments she has made make me feel that it is not going to happen. My family tell me to just get on with my life and not to bother with whether or not she comes home but how do you get on with your life, my daughter is my life yes I have a beautiful partner and we plan to marry next year. My daughter is only 15 and has always been with me. In feel by letting go I would be letting us both down.
I will find out later how she really feels I hope. I just want to be able to cope if she doesn't want to come back but I am worried that I will just go into crisis again and I don't know if I can recover this time I am so frightened of losing control and with it everything and everyone around me.
i know I am not a bad mum I have always tried to be there for my girls I work hard, and have given them all my love. Friends and family say I have given them too much of me they are very angry and hurt that my daughter has treated me the way she has. They are not spoilt in material ways but how much love is too much love from a mum to her children, I can't answer that one but I do not regret the amount if love I have given and continue to give to my children. Am I the one who is being selfish by unconsciously wanting to be loved in the way I love them I just don't know.