I have been so lost with depression, my depression is serve at moment I've fallen apart this week. I've been hallucinating and hearing voices. Like my earlier post I am ashamed to admit that. I'm not some crazy women, some fruit cake. .... I'm still me! Still the same ole Claire. Just sometime I may ask strange things that aren't there and look high and low for my partner coz his been calling my name. This week while in shower I heard voices. It's been a few weeks as I thought it had stopped as my meds had started to work, I was scared .. frightened and I fell apart big time. Couldn't get through to crisis team (what a surprise!). The next evening I went to jazzisize came home, home unlock, tv on, No partner. I panicked. I go myself in such a state in 3 mins going in the road turning round and round and no one there. I felt I was being pulled into a big black hole. I felt helpless as I started to take my meds.
Fi3h who I talk to on here. We usually have a chat every day. Has made me think ... I should have come to u guys for support or I could have come to her in my hr of need. But I haven't been good in asking for help, since my mum died 11 yrs ago, as No one has really been there.
Sorry fi3h and u guys for letting u down. More importantly I've let myself down. Time to rebuild 🙂 and get back on track. It's NOT happening again!!!