Hi there. My name is Mark. And currently I've hit a major slump in my life. I've been suffering from anxiety and now I'm in depression. You could say I'm going through an existential crisis.
As of now, my mind is constantly thinking about the meaning of life or how life might be an illusion. And the more I look into it, the more depressed I become. I always look at philosophy sites to constantly get answers so I can be content in life. I also let the negative opinions of those affect me like "you're stupid for liking this!" or something like that. And because of my anxiety, I've been getting derealisation which has been fueling my depression as well.
Everything just doesn't make sense to me anymore. And I don't want it to be this way. I fear this is the end of my life. I don't have suicidal thoughts (since it's something I would never do) but I just can't be happy in life anymore. I also fear all this depression and anxiety will kill me (even though I'm only 21). What should I do? Thanks.