Hello I just found this website and was hoping for some advice.
I am 21 years old and I think I may be depressed. For the past 8 months I have not felt myself. I have had little energy no matter how much sleep I have or don't have as well as no motivation which really is not like me. Over the past 8 months things have kept adding up.
I feel anxious when I leave the house and feel better when I'm in the house but even speaking to family is sometimes such an effort. I just want to be on my own. I want to do things with my friends but I just can't be bothered at all I just want to chill on my own. I feel emotional for no reason at times and have even cried. I'm
Not a person who cries often at all, sometimes I just want a hug, to be alone, and sometimes I don't even know myself what I want.
I don't have much tolerance for people and even harmless jokes and banter are a massive chore to laugh and join in.
I am at uni at have a small part time job and have even considered giving this up as I just cannot be bothered to do anything.
I feel so sad all the time over nothing apparent, it is just my general mood all the time and I just feel trapped by my own brain. When someone tells me to cheer up I just feel angry and even worse because it's not out of choice. I can't help feeling like this at all.
I have known for a while that something is not right but I don't think I want to admit that there may be something wrong. I worry about the 'your so young what could you possibly have to be miserable about' perception as I have heard this so many times - not aimed at me as I have only recently told my mam how I am feeling.
Sleeping is sometimes difficult. I could sleep all day long but on a night it can take me up to 4 hours (on a bad night) to get to sleep but I do normally stay asleep through the night but getting up on a morning is a nightmare.
Like anyone things haven't always been easy but I have moved on from the things that haven't gone right and put my past behind me and there is nothing that I can think of that has happened to have caused me to feel like this for this long.
I just wanted some advice from others about what I should do as I don't want to get to the point of not wanting to get out of bed. I feel like I'm existing and that's it.
I have made changes in my lifestyle like cutting out any alcohol even though I wasn't a big drinker anyway. Maybe 3 drinks a week. I have changed my eating habits and stopping smoking but I am just feeling worse and worse as time is going on, I'm fed up of being so sad all the time.
Any help would be really appreciated. Thank you so much in advance.