Hi, I'm very new to this and I don't really know what to do or if I'm sharing too much but I don't know what else I can do so here goes...
Since around July I've started to feel very down, at first I thought I was just a bit stressed out because I was working a lot during the summer. Then I was going on holiday which I thought was going to cheer me up. I was wrong. The closer I got to going on holiday, the less I wanted to go. All I wanted to do was hide in my room and not talk to anyone. I did go on holiday and I hated it, I cried on the flight there and felt I couldn't relax when I had landed, and was desperate to go home.
When I got home I just couldn't settle, the littlest things at work upset me and I didn't want to be around family or friends. I kept blowing off my friends invitations to hang out which then led to them stop asking which made me feel like I was loosing friends but I honestly didn't care that they didn't want to be around me because I didn't want to be around them.
I started to think I was maybe just missing the university life as I had an amazing first year and made so many great friends. However, as of last week moved back to uni and I still feel the same; not wanting to talk to people, very tearful, feeling down and a bit stressed out.
I have also noticed that I am tired all the time but can't get to sleep at night. Then the nights I can sleep, I sleep for 12 hours solid and wake up feeling even more tired than usual.
I'm really just looking for a bit of advice on what to do? I've always been a really happy person but now I am totally different and it's scaring me. I'm trying to convince myself I'm fine but I really don't think I am. Sorry for going on about it but I'm just looking for a bit of friendly, anonymous advice as I don't feel I could talk to anyone I know about this.
Thank you in advance x