This is by way of an explanation for my errant behaviour in the face of serious goings on and my ignoring them And by way of an apology to you all.
Obviously some people here are going through some pretty bad times, and I myself am amidst some truly awful stuff of nightmares. However and this isn't for everyone, Im choosing to ignore my dire situation. Like little kids who sing LA LA LAH when you say something they don't want to hear, In the hope that by the time I open my ears and eyes some of my problems will have gone or at least manifest in a more manageable nature.
So Im sorry I haven't been much support to those of you who have poured your hearts out in need of help and understanding, right now I dont have a great deal to give. However what I did want to say is just because I lark about Im not trivialising your suffering or ignoring you!
Part of me would like to complain endlessly about what is going pear shaped but its as if I have been completely taken over by my alter ego Reggie Perrin in his days at his Grot Shop and I cant open up.
When I was a kid I used to be glued to Reggie Perrin (second time round I hasten to add, but still with Leonard Rossiter as Reggie). The idea of stripping off your clothes and running away, pure bliss and though I was only about 12, I could recognise my own life in his ( a middle aged man stuck in the rat race) at Sunshine Desserts and I still do!
I'd rather start his wonderful commune in a terraced house....lol.
Quote from Reggie:
Doc Morrissey: Do you find you can't finish the crossword like you used to, nasty taste in the mouth in the mornings, can't stop thinking about s*x, can't start doing anything about s*x, wake up with a sweat in the mornings, keep falling asleep during "Play For Today"?
Reggie: That's extraordinary, Doc! That's exactly how I've been feeling.
Doc Morrissey: So have I. I wonder what it is? Take two aspirins.
I could imagine my doctor saying that....lol