Well i dont really know where to start really. i am supposed to be assessed on wednesday on whether i have depression or not personally i think i have been suffering for a while. i have no drive to do anythink i feel useless i takes me ages to get out of bed and this is not me usually confidence has dropped to an all time low. for whats triggered my depression it could be a number of thing i.e. growing up with an alcoholic mother and been kicked out at the age 14 with no family or friends to turn to, having a child at the at a young age, friends that stabbed me in my back, a relationship that has very little passion with me giving my all but not getting anythink back, which in one hand is making me say forget but in the other hand i still try to hold on to that hope. I can feel myself falling into that dark place where i have no emotions towards anythink and become distant simply because i have given up this is really gettin on top as my son can see this when he looks at me even when he has had a big achievement i am happy and proud of him but unable to show any affection.