Im a member of the running forum and someone has just messaged me saying some stuff and then "say hello to tosca for me"....
Made me feel really weird...I didnt feel like crying. Why didnt I cry?
I feel like im not upset as much as I should be. I still cant believe its happenend and cant believe hes not in the house. There are periods I forget and then I remember being in tje vets yeterday and his little weird cry Which id never heard before. His face as he was being injected...his blood on the tissue from the injection...it haunts me...I get like a burning feeling, bit likr when you panic about something. But I dont feel distraught like I did last Sunday when I didnt think he was going to be here much longer.
I feel guilty for laughing in work and getting on with things. Why am I not more upset?!!!
I did cry a bit yesterday when i got home and when I woke up in the middle of the night but it didnt feel like it did when I first thought we would have to have him put down.
I cant stop thinking about my mum and shes as upset as I should be.
I cant believe hes not here, but why am I not more upset...I want to be upset!!!!
I feel so bad