ive been having panic attacks again, today is the worst. I used to have them in my 20's and was prescribed betablockers; they worked at keeping me calm but when I was naturally relaxed and calm they made me feel light headed. I eventually came off them and learnt to ease my panic attacks and " talk" to myself to calm down.
over the last few months they are becoming more intense and today I had a full blown attack, I still feel odd, shakey and weak. just wanted to talk to someone as I know my husband wouldn't understand. I have low confidence and put on "my mask" for work but I phoned in sick today,i couldn't face it.
I avoid social events as much as possible as I feel I cannot compete with other people, I just want to curl up and hide. I have a lot going on at home right now including money worries, I cant see a way out as we are not entitled to financial help, my friend has been diagnosed with stomach and liver cancer,his only hope is chemo as the tumor is too advanced and in wrong place for surgery, I am currently begging rescue centres to home his little dog as he can no longer care for him, but over 10 have turned me down. I cannot take him as my tenancy only permits 2 dogs.
just need to share some of my burden, sorry x