I used to self-harm years ago, when I was a teenager then done it sporadically over the years, but recently ,say, over the last year or so, I've been doing it just about every day, and its getting worse.
I don't know why I do it, but I like the pain, and I like seeing the blood.
When I first started again I was making sure I wasn't cutting to deep as I didn't to end up with loads of scars, and I didn't want my family (especially the kids, coz how do you explain??) to see, but recently I've been caring less and cutting deeper and harder,
A few month ago I had to go to A&E and get 14 stitches. I didn't mean to cut so hard and so deep but the knife was slightly sharper than I anticipated plus it was dark when I done it.
How do I stop? Why did I start again? Why do I do it?
Sorry, yet another post from me, I must have wrote more posts in the last couple of days than half the members on this site have in a year
It's just so good to finally be able to get stuff off my chest without it getting blamed on my drugaddiction and without getting judged!
Thank you all for listening, Holly 101