Ok - so I've been off work now for 6 months with anxiety and depression.
My dosage of citalopram was increased to 40mg and I also take another AD.
About 3 months ago I decided I was starting to feel better so I took myself off the Citalpram (which I've been on since my first breakdown in 2009).
Now, however, my relationship has gone to sh*t.
My partner has taken to being frighteningly verbally abusive whey he gets drunk and locking me in his house so I can't leave. Considering my anxiety, this has caused me a insurmountable distress and contributed to the downward spiral of my mood.
I love him but the verbal abuse has been escalating for months now - he is very aggressive, confrontational, thrives on conflict and I can't take it any more.
The breaking up is so hard though (we don't live together thank GOD) - but I feel so vulnerable at the moment....lonely and fearful to the point of nausea when I'm on my own.
I resolve not to call him or answer his texts . . .but then in a moment of weakness I cave in....we talk - it's ok for a while (all he talks about is himself) but then he returns to the snippy comments - trying to make me feel guilty about things.
All my friends say I should get rid of him, which I know I should. But the pulling away from the security of our (albeit destructive) relationship is horrible - so intensely draining and hideous.
Anyway, the upshot of all this is that I am considering going back on the Citalopram because I just don't think I can cope any more.
Am I failing if I do this?