I know I haven't posted very often as I thought I was feeling much better but I can feel myself sinking again. The lovely man I was beginning a relationship with has backed right off....in defense to him, he is suffering from severe depression and stress himself and really needs to focus on him. I'm upset because I really care for him and want to be there for him but understand his need to be alone. I'm also feeling low as it's my birthday on Friday and I'm faced with waking up alone on the day for the 10th year on the run. I'm so lonely and really feel like there must be something wrong with me....I so want to feel that someone wants to share their life with me, that I'm important to someone apart from my children.