I have been diagnosed with depression for many years now, but im starting to wonder if this is not just depression and maybe more.
The reason why i think this is because i cannot remain in one frame of mind for more then one day. My moods continuously chop and change, one minute im very happy, then i want to die,then im angry. The slightest thing can set any of these moods off and i often over react to most situations. I have to admit i am extremely paranoid..ive been in a relationship for 5 months now and he loves me very much. I can say this because i feel my mood is currently balanced. If i was on a low i tend to dis believe he loves me, has ulterior motive, and i become suspicious of everything he does. Then when i come back down to earth it suddenly hits me like a bus how crazy ive been acting. Then the paranoia comes back..and then i think but what if i am right? haha i have to laugh. If not i would cry. It goes round in circles, when i feel ok.. im fine. When i start to feel low i dont want him looking at any other women, im become overwhelmed by extreme jealously. Everything becomes very intense and i often become quite aggressive. Its really bad...then i cant sleep which only makes the delusions worse. Then theres the extreme highs where my sex drive goes through the roof and then were able to have a very fun happy playful sexual relationship. I also alter from being extremely insecure, to over confident and cocky. Basically all these mood changes are going to destroy my relationship and i need to help. Im currently on 100mg of sertraline, which has helped with the sadness side of things and its helped me see my behaviour much more clearly and how...maniac it is.
So what do you guys think ? is this just depression? bi-polar?personality disorder?
Would mood stabilizers be of help? Maybe Anti-Psychotics?
Please all let me know what you think.
Thanks for reading.