I am desperate

[ABana]

I am 47 and peri menopausal according to the GP. I have been prescribed Estraderm MX 100 and Utrogestan 100.

I am severely depressed and experiencing incapacitating anxiety. I am suicidal. The only thing that keeps me alive is knowing that I would ruin my children’s life.

I have been fired from my job because I was performing well. I can’t read or memorise anything. My IQ has halved. I can not perform the most menial task, like cooking or writing a note. I am a post graduate woman. What is happening to me?

I feel that if I were a man I would have been referred to a neurologist already.

[Sasical]

Hi ABana

I do feel for you as I'm also 47 and in peri hell.

I am taking antidepressants and another med for anxiety. I don't like meds but I couldn't cope.

Now with the meds the intensity has decreased a bit, enough for me to be able to keep saying to myself that "this too shall pass".

I also had bloods done and I'm B12 defficient and low on vit D and iron. Since I have started taking these vits I'm noticing small improvements. Have you had your vits checked?

Another thing I did when I was desperate was Google "perimenopause feel like I'm dying", it brings up forums on Patient with loooads of women going through this, this helped me feel less alone in what I was feeling xx

[ABana in reply to Sasical]

Thank you very much

[Helpme23]

Hi I've just joined thus site. I have read the comments and I feel just the same x

[ABana in reply to Helpme23]

I’m really sorry to read you are feeling like this. I am on antidepressants, anxiolytic, HRT and vitamin D and I have not noticed any improvement.

I have asked my GP for a referral to a Psychiatrist.

Please, please get help. Talk to your GP. There has to be a way to overcome this. Sending you lots of love. We got this. Xxx

[fitness2020]

I’m so sorry you feel like this. I sought out help from an alternative practioner in Croydon and it really did make a huge difference. It is called The Ayurvedic Clinic and they are just amazing people there that really know how to help. Sending you lots of love x

[Ferrygirl]

You dont mention if you’ve ever had any talking therapy. If not it is most certainly indicated from your symptoms. Your GP can refer you. Some areas have long waiting lists but some areas are pretty quick. Good luck and take one day at a tome, try to plan some activity for each day so you have something to get up for in the morning. You can and will get better

[jumpingaround]

Dear ABana

I’m so sorry to hear how awful this is for you. I too am a post grad menopausal woman and thought I was losing my mind!

Memory loss, anxiety, fatigue, really aching feet??🙃 totally lost myself.

I got prescribed your exact medication and I’m absolutely back to normal. I can now walk again, remember my lectures and I’ve stopped weeping over everything. I was scared to take HRT but I am so pleased I did. I hope you have as much success as I did. Now been on it 6 months. Took abt 3 months to work.

Keep your chin up I’m thinking of you xx

[CofG]

OMG Abana, I have only just read this because I feel the exact same way most of the time. I have my faith in God to keep me hoping that it will get better but the journey is so hard. I have just been prescribed Estraderm MX 75 patches too along with the Utrogestan. I was on Oestrogel but I was not noticing any improvements with my cognitive issues which are making me feel like I have dementia and that I am losing it and it's so scary. Keeps me up at night trying to hijack my brain to put fear in me but as I said, faith and hope are what give me strength... How are you now after 3 years??? Have you recovered your brain??? I'd love to hear from you please... Sending blessings your way