This is my story of how I changing and changed my life.
All my life I was thin, until I had a pituitary tumor, I was put on hydro cortisone tablets which was at a high dose, and my weight shot up, any and little confidence I had just disappeared, I gave up on everything, leading to depression.
Last year I weighed 21 stone, I never ever realized it , until one day someone took a photograph of me and I was shocked, I couldn't believe it. All the time I believed I was still the same person as before.
My diet before consisted of chips, pizza, pasties, crisps, chocolates, biscuits, burgers. I just ate and ate, never paying attention to what it was doing to me.
Then in January I decided it was time for a change, I need to fix my life, and finish where I had left off before I tumor.
I stopped drinking fizzy pop, the cravings was tough, but I learn't then I need to do things slowly, have a veggie wrap or veggie burger with out chips, and slowly whine my self off the craving of this nasty food.
Then I just suddenly stopped eating things from the chip shop haven't been for half a year, what makes me angry is that a meal is cheaper from a chip shop then it is to buy healthy food.
At first I craved the food, but I am stubborn person, I got a picture printed of myself when I was 21st and stuck it on the wall where I can see it, I look at it when I lose a little motivation, and remind myself what I was.
I never looked in the mirror, I hated myself, I was so ashamed of myself. I felt like a monster.
Back in January I started to use an exercise bike, the first ten minutes was sheer hell, I would be pouring of sweat, oh that reminds, when I was 21st I would take a little and be pouring with sweat, that stopped me wanting to go out, It made me feel so uncomfortable, I felt why are people looking at me, when perhaps they wasn't.
I tried to jump from 10 mins to 30 mins on my bike, I failed so hard, well fail is the wrong word, I had a whole new learning experience, so I went back to 10 mins again, and I just stuck with it, just adding a minute, every couple of weeks, or sticking with the same until it became to easy. Now I do 40 mins, that to me is quite an achievement.
I tried to do 1 push up, I couldn't even hold my weight, then I started to do wall press ups, it didn't put me off, I knew I had to start from the beginning, even though I still do wall press ups.
My diet consists of 800 calories to 1000 calories a day, but I try to stick to 800, this is not for everyone, but i have felt I have adapted to it.
Some days I will feel mega hungry but I resist the temptation to eat anything bad, which takes a lot of will power. But it's all about what you want.
I have been to birthday party's, other events I won't eat any thing, just have as little as possible of which is healthy, like vegetables.
Do i miss the things I use to eat, nope, when I look at pizza, chips or any other bad food I feel physically sick.
Even though people say have some as a treat, but I know where that road leads to, and I can't go back to what I was.
well any way.
From January I was 131 kg, and last week I weighed myself I was 94 kg, that's 37 kg I have lost since January this year. I still have another 10 kg to lose.
But a friend told me something wise, it's not a sprint its a marathon, the choices you have to make are for life, not just to help you lose weight and go back to eating what you ate before.
Anything is possible if you believe in your heart, think it and the body will follow.
Disappointed in myself 
How I gave myself a food addiction through dieting
What's the best way to lose weight?
Feeling a little mixed
Muddled and undecided
