I have been reading lots of the posts blogs here recently and it is really sad to read how many of us are depressed. I was interested in the way it affects us..apparently differently and thought it is worth raising the subject because I want to hear other peoples' opinions.
I have not yet been diagnosed after14 blood and urine tests, my appt in the first week of Oct should I am praying show what is going on..Thyroid Cortisol Adrenals Testosterone I was vert thoroughly tested.
However, I am interested because my depression doesn't seem to be too terrible, it's the total exhaustion, wanting to sleep all the time and weight gain that really worries me.
But I am on antidepressants, citalopram. I am 54 and a teacher and ended up in a school where the Head and I did not get on...I Sid very respectfully that I thought her treatment of me amounted to workplace bullying (on union advice) and she started shouting and threw me out of the office.
I wasn't taking anti depressants then. It's too long a story to put all the details but I need up taking a grievance against her and she responded by suspending me. That was when I did get depressed and started the tablets. After 18 mths suspension and long wrangles I was cleared of any serious charges but sacked for not getting on with the Head..sacked without pay references anything. Now that was all enormously stressful culminating in March this year. I have had to adapt to living on benefits..my husband has severe hep c, osteoporosis..has had skin cancer and has a replacement knee after a major smash up like Barry Sheen.
I saw the dismissal coming and executed to be able to go and get another teaching job after the axe had fallen and had a couple of interviews, but my now was bigger and getting more and more tired since then.
It is hard in the chicken and egg situation to know where things started..before my work problems I couldn't lose weight and I found an old tsh test result of 2.7 from about 10 years ago. I always felt sleepy and ready for a nap at any moment but nowhere near as severe as now...
So have I been hypo for a long time causing depression(on top of a very stressful life) or what?
Are you guys taking antidepressants or using the thyroxine to treat it?
I am lethargic, tired no libido (antidepressants cause that and as hubby feels the same we are happy to have a celibate relationship...might sound strange but honest we are fine as we are both ill and it is discussed and agreed)
But I have learned to live a day at a time, trust the future to God..and I suppose if I didn't have a set of spiritual beliefs I'd be worse off!,
I know I feel far fro normal I can't imagine ever working again...I only leave the house once a week because of everything, and hating my appearance etc. I feel like I was totally abused by the Education system. I had the grounds to go on and pursue unfair dismissal but to be honest having been sat at home for so long, I couldn't bear to keep fighting nag making myself ilea. Anyone who knows me knew I had worked my butt off and never done anything except upset a bullying narcissistic Head.
Sorry for all the bio but it's hard to contextualise my situation otherwise.hopefully I will find a cause and some treatment and this will be a turning point in my life and an opportunity to move forward in a new direction.
How are you handling depression pills or not? Did it come before your thyroid diagnosis or as a result.I'd like to know.