Hi, I just wondered if anyone out there has experience of being on both Levo and antidepressants. My mental health has deteriorated lately. I have battled depression and anxiety for probably 30 years, (insert sad face here) probably since I was a teenager but in the last few years it has stopped me from having what I would call a normal life and I have found myself withdrawing in order to cope.
It did seem to get worse having auto immune thyroid diagnosed last Autumn as I have found it so hard to focus even on small tasks and I feel like my brain is just unravelling. The depression has really set in too and I seem to have lost my ability to manage this.
I was already struggling to cope because of the depression and anxiety so the symptoms of the under active thyroid on top has been debilitating at times, so I am rather worried about messing with my already messed up brain chemistry and how bad I will feel once I start taking them. I know that it is necessary but I am scared in case I feel worse mostly because I have had problems with self harm and addictions in the past and don't want any relapse.
I have struggled for years because seeking help is stressful and I find all the doctors appointments now really difficult as I am forced to deal with this too.
I finally went to the GP this morning because I decided that I have had enough of feeling like this and owe it to myself as well as my family to get this sorted out, but I wanted to ask if anyone else has had experience of the two, because I am so worried about the first few weeks on the antidepressants because my head is not a great place to be and I am in it 24/7 as it is. The last thing I want is for them to make me worse or exacerbate the symptoms of my under active thyroid because there are times when I just want to curl up and sleep the whole thing off. I am still trying to get my levels right with the Levo and it has been a rough ride in the last few months with many unscheduled doctors visits that ended with the doctor passing me onto someone else. I am waiting to see an endo at the end of the month and I am waiting for my blood test results to see what happens next.
I am scared to rock the boat with the antidepressants. It sounds stupid, but I have gotten used to the way I feel. Although it is not normal, it is normal for me and I am scared of the uncertainty ahead. I know where I stand with how I feel right now even though it hurts to feel so low, but I am afraid of not being in control of my own emotions and antidepressants feel fake, like they are just masking the problem. It's what's kept me from taking them for years but if I want to feel better, I know I have to lose this fear and help myself. She also gave me a counselling number which I hope I can do (at some point...) I know that I won't get well by just addressing the hypothyroidism because there are other issues which need addressing too and if I can do this, I hope that I can stand a chance of living a happy, healthy, normal life again instead of just striving to get through each day which is what I am doing now.
I would be grateful if anyone can help or reassure because having the hypothyroidism diagnosed seems to have been the tipping point for me as it seems to have removed my ability to manage my depression. Not really sure which section to post this in, sorry. It's a bit of a mixed bag.
Thank you all for listening.