Sorry to post again, all your kind words earlier this week helped and comforted me so much. My anxiety is very high, I can't see my GP until after Christmas so I have to suck it up and accept it's anxiety. I saw my therapist last night, I decided to go and see the one that helped me after my attack a few years ago, she was lovely. She said this was general anxiety and it had come on due to me fearing being ill at Christmas (I have had a tough year with chronic fatigue and an underactive thyroid, on thyroxine 25mg May to September and since 50mg). She said me putting pressure on myself to not have an energy crash and not have anxiety had brought back my anxiety severe. She doesn't think I need to see my GP as he will only suggest diazepam and I won't ever take that.
I am just worried incase it's hyperthyroidism, which ok is probably unlikely but I was wondering if someone could reassure me. My TSH was 9.28 in May, I went on 25mg of levo. I was fine on that dose, my TSH came down to about 6 in July then shot back up to 8 in the September. I was then put on 50mg. Recent bloods at the beginning of November showed TSH was 2.6, FT3 5.3 and FT4 19 ish. GP happy to leave me for 3 months as I was feeling well, still tired but better than I had all year. My anxiety was calmer too.
Then 4 weeks ago out of the blue I had severe physical anxiety for 2 days, unlike me as my anxiety is more worries, fears like what ifs, health worries that kind of thing. It eased off but after that it was a churning general anxiety. I was off my food, no appetite, felt sick alot of days, dread in my tummy etc... my therapist last night said that is general anxiety. I was worried what if I feel ill at Christmas, what if this anxiety doesn't stop. I put so much pressure on myself.
Since Monday this week it's been constant stomach churning, giddiness, weak legs, feeling sick, off my food, sometimes a fast heart and rush of panic.... proper high anxiety. Same time as last month, I had a week like this, 2 days before finishing my pill packet and until I had my period. I haven't bled the last 2 months, too much info but it's not been red just very light and light brown. SO my husband said this could be hormones as they're racing maybe due to period changes and maybe you need a break. I have been on it 4 years, just a low dose to help heavy periods. I am going to not re start it I think this month but that worries me incase it causes more anxiety and heavy periods again, urgh.
I am panicking myself I am hyperthyroid. I use Medicheck for my bloods, GP accepts them, it's the finger prick testing. I am just worrying what if the results aren't accurate, what if I am hyper etc... arghhh it's causing me to feel constant anxiety and I am worried this current fear cycle won't calm until I feel reassured. Urgh it's horrible, I feel constantly sick and churning stomach with rushes of panic here and there. My therapist and hubby say it's all anxiety but I've never had anxiety so physical before. I had high anxiety for 2 days 4 weeks ago, then simmering general anxiety and off my food then wham this week high again and like one long anxiety attack. I am sleeping ok, but I wake every day with a churning stomach and fear. It's no fun and I am putting pressure on myself for this to be gone for Sunday and I feel I am letting everyone down.
Sorry to post again but if anyone can comfort me or give me a slap about the results I'd appreciate it. I will see my GP next week if this doesn't calm down for sure. My husband thinks it's all the pressure of Christmas and December being a huge trigger for me after my family hurt me badly 4 years ago but I never feel this bad and why would i now? it's been a tough year physically but I was doing much better. I am gutted i feel this bad now.
PS - BP is fine 110/70 max and that's when anxious, pulse only shoots up when I get very anxious. No temperature either.
Sorry to post I really am, I bet you're all sick of me and my anxiety posts right now. It's been a hard week. I have 3 kids and I have had to slap on a smile and pretend I am ok, I have had to clean and cook while feeling so rubbish, hubby is working all week. I have no support as I have no family. You guys here have been a great support to me.