Hi everyone! I read so many amazing responses to my previous post about me being scared, and honestly I am so grateful my heart was filled with warmth. Thank you all! I think I was panicking and overthinking which is expected. I will get back to everyone for their kind words and stories. May God bless you all, and sending you all hugs❤️
So it has been a week since my moms breast cancer diagnosis , and we have my moms oncologist appointment on wednesday finally. This week felt normal to me for some reason? And I feel kind of guilty for it. I went back to university, and I felt okay. I have not felt the urge to cry, neither has my mom. I think I accepted this, and accepted anything coming our way. I do get ocassionally sad, but not like the first days. The first days were pure darkness and sobbing. I feel like I can function now. I just don't feel that scared anymore and I am looking for the feeling again and it is gone at the moment. I feel guilty for having enjoyed this week a bit . I went out for a little had a few laughs, and just felt fine. I felt a bit of strength, and just told my mom I will be there for her.
I don't know what happened, but I just felt a leap of faith. It is so weird because I cried myself to sleep for days and now I am just okay.I accept it. I know there may be hard days coming, but right now even my mom tells me we have gone through so much, we can do this together. I almost lost her last year, so I realized we need to be strong together for anything coming.I just feel so different, I am confused. I prayed to God to give us some strength and peace of mind, and that is what I am feeling until we get further information.
All the love 💕☺️