Relapse 😔

[ccurn]

I didn’t want to write this but yes, I relapsed.. it was a combination of drink and sorrow that led me to light up. My dog, my friend for over 15 years, died. I had him euthanized and that made it even harder. I have quit again - yesterday was completely smoke-free. I guess I smoked off and on for almost a month!! So again I am restarting my quit journey.

I liked being a non smoker - I was happier. I am embarrassed and chagrined... Nic was waiting to pounce after 10 months?!?! Wow what an addiction.

Thanks for listening. Admin can you please reset my date to July 5/19? Thanks 😢🥺☹️😞😡

[Veteran250]

Sorry to hear about your Dog ccurn, what was his/her name.

My dog Missy had to be put to sleep two years ago this month, she was a Staffordshire Bull Terrier and had six epileptic siesures within thirty six hours, the vet said it had frazzled her brain and she couldn’t stand up anymore, she was with us since she was born..... she was nine years of age. 😔❤️

[ccurn 13 MONTHS WINNER in reply to Veteran250]

Hi - his name was Fizz. I didn’t realize how much it would affect me. I’m becoming more sentimental with age. I find too, that loss reminds me of other losses. I lost my dad not too long ago, my sis and my mom before that... They were all crowding around - the memories. I felt I NEEDED a cigarette. It tasted awful but because I was drinking, I kept at it.. until it tasted like relief again. Soooo stupid. It solves nothing. But I’m back.

Thank you for taking time to reply and I’m sorry you lost your fur baby xo

[Veteran250 in reply to ccurn]

Thank you my lovely, we are all here to encourage and support in any way we can 😀🌹

[TheTabbyCat Administrator LONG TERM WINNER]

Hi ccurn,I'm sorry to hear of your loss. As we get older it seems to become more difficult to cope with these partings,especially when we have to make the difficult decision to end the suffering.

As you have enjoyed an amazing quit,without any mistakes ,you don't necessarily have to go back to zero for one hiccup,unless of course you want to.

Please don't beat your self up about it,you have picked yourself up and are back on track.

Nic is always ready for us as soon as we let our guard down. I relapsed after 4 years ,at a party because I hadn't reckoned with the addiction factor.

Let us know if you really want to go back to day one or lose 10 weeks.

Thank you for your honesty not only to us but also to yourself. 🚭xx

[ccurn 13 MONTHS WINNER in reply to TheTabbyCat]

Yes - I’m glad I can be honest with this group! I would prefer 10 weeks off because I DID have a good thing going.. I love being smoke free and I have to remember NOPE . Thank you.

[TheTabbyCat Administrator LONG TERM WINNER in reply to ccurn]

You are very welcome hun. It could happen to any of us.😪

I now have Snoopy as a screen saver on my phone saying N.O.P.E. not today.

I'll go and see if I can sort out your new badge. If you need a shoulder to lean on remember there is always someone here.💪🚭👍xx

[droopyJ]

Hi ccurn, I’m sorry to hear of your loss.

Nicotine has a terrible hold on us and it doesn’t matter to it what we are going through. It pounces on us when we are at our most vulnerable or even just having a bad 5 minutes!!!

Sometimes it’s just easier to smoke than go through the withdrawal 🤷‍♀️

Whatever the reasons, it’s why NOPE is so important in our lives, regardless of what stage of our quit we are at. We have to keep our wits about us!

Good luck with your quit and remember NOPE 🚭🚭🚭🚭

[Corrina125 LONG TERM WINNER]

Sorry to hear of your loss ccurn. Don't beat yourself up about the smoking! You've started again and you know you can do this!

[jillygirl Administrator Queen Bee]

Hi ccurn, like all the others have said , many of us get to a low point at some times in life. losing a close pet and loyal friend is heartbreaking. You are not a failure , as you have re started and trying again. Like Tubby says dont lose all your quit that you have achieved , losing 10 weeks is better than 11 months. You will breeze it this time. xxxx

[Briarwood Administrator Ducky]

So sorry to hear of your sad loss ccurn.

Happy to hear you’re back on your quit, well done🚭✅💕🌻xx

[glolin LONG TERM WINNER]

The addiction has an incredible hold on us. Sorry to hear about the loss of your dog,

I had a similar experience almost 3 years ago now. I lost my little Jack dog then 6 weeks later lost my little Jill dog. I think Jill died of a broken heart as my two Maltese shitzhus were literally joined at the up.

Fortunately for me I never lit up, the thought did cross my mind. I know for me personally, one cigarette, one puff and I would be back smoking again so I make that conscious decision every day. NOPE- not one puff ever.

Be proud of yourself for quitting again, and may be worth looking at other ways to manage emotional occasions for the the future. 🍀🍀👍👍

[coat2003]

Sorry to hear about your dog. Dogs are the most faithful companions...The change brought by extra responsibility, our mental health neighbour, is remarkable...once you are ready to move on from this grief, technically restart...However long and the form it'll take. We all are different...set yourself an achievable goals. You get there....

[Sykes29 19 Months Winner]

So sorry to hear about your dog and don't be too hard on yourself for the relapse. X

[Sara_2611]

Good luck with your new journey

[poncik Next attempt]

So sorry to hear of your sad loss ccurn. I know well what it means. 😥