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ccurn13 MONTHS WINNER
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I didnโ€™t want to write this but yes, I relapsed.. it was a combination of drink and sorrow that led me to light up. My dog, my friend for over 15 years, died. I had him euthanized and that made it even harder. I have quit again - yesterday was completely smoke-free. I guess I smoked off and on for almost a month!! So again I am restarting my quit journey.

I liked being a non smoker - I was happier. I am embarrassed and chagrined... Nic was waiting to pounce after 10 months?!?! Wow what an addiction.

Thanks for listening. Admin can you please reset my date to July 5/19? Thanks ๐Ÿ˜ข๐Ÿฅบโ˜น๏ธ๐Ÿ˜ž๐Ÿ˜ก

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Veteran250

Sorry to hear about your Dog ccurn, what was his/her name.

My dog Missy had to be put to sleep two years ago this month, she was a Staffordshire Bull Terrier and had six epileptic siesures within thirty six hours, the vet said it had frazzled her brain and she couldnโ€™t stand up anymore, she was with us since she was born..... she was nine years of age. ๐Ÿ˜”โค๏ธ

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ccurn13 MONTHS WINNER in reply to Veteran250

Hi - his name was Fizz. I didnโ€™t realize how much it would affect me. Iโ€™m becoming more sentimental with age. I find too, that loss reminds me of other losses. I lost my dad not too long ago, my sis and my mom before that... They were all crowding around - the memories. I felt I NEEDED a cigarette. It tasted awful but because I was drinking, I kept at it.. until it tasted like relief again. Soooo stupid. It solves nothing. But Iโ€™m back.

Thank you for taking time to reply and Iโ€™m sorry you lost your fur baby xo

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Veteran250 in reply to ccurn

Thank you my lovely, we are all here to encourage and support in any way we can ๐Ÿ˜€๐ŸŒน

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TheTabbyCatAdministratorLONG TERM WINNER

Hi ccurn,I'm sorry to hear of your loss. As we get older it seems to become more difficult to cope with these partings,especially when we have to make the difficult decision to end the suffering.

As you have enjoyed an amazing quit,without any mistakes ,you don't necessarily have to go back to zero for one hiccup,unless of course you want to.

Please don't beat your self up about it,you have picked yourself up and are back on track.

Nic is always ready for us as soon as we let our guard down. I relapsed after 4 years ,at a party because I hadn't reckoned with the addiction factor.

Let us know if you really want to go back to day one or lose 10 weeks.

Thank you for your honesty not only to us but also to yourself. ๐Ÿšญxx

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ccurn13 MONTHS WINNER in reply to TheTabbyCat

Yes - Iโ€™m glad I can be honest with this group! I would prefer 10 weeks off because I DID have a good thing going.. I love being smoke free and I have to remember NOPE . Thank you.

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TheTabbyCatAdministratorLONG TERM WINNER in reply to ccurn

You are very welcome hun. It could happen to any of us.๐Ÿ˜ช

I now have Snoopy as a screen saver on my phone saying N.O.P.E. not today.

I'll go and see if I can sort out your new badge. If you need a shoulder to lean on remember there is always someone here.๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿšญ๐Ÿ‘xx

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droopyJ

Hi ccurn, Iโ€™m sorry to hear of your loss.

Nicotine has a terrible hold on us and it doesnโ€™t matter to it what we are going through. It pounces on us when we are at our most vulnerable or even just having a bad 5 minutes!!!

Sometimes itโ€™s just easier to smoke than go through the withdrawal ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ

Whatever the reasons, itโ€™s why NOPE is so important in our lives, regardless of what stage of our quit we are at. We have to keep our wits about us!

Good luck with your quit and remember NOPE ๐Ÿšญ๐Ÿšญ๐Ÿšญ๐Ÿšญ

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Corrina125LONG TERM WINNER

Sorry to hear of your loss ccurn. Don't beat yourself up about the smoking! You've started again and you know you can do this!

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jillygirlAdministratorQueen Bee

Hi ccurn, like all the others have said , many of us get to a low point at some times in life. losing a close pet and loyal friend is heartbreaking. You are not a failure , as you have re started and trying again. Like Tubby says dont lose all your quit that you have achieved , losing 10 weeks is better than 11 months. You will breeze it this time. :) xxxx

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BriarwoodAdministratorLONG TERM WINNER

So sorry to hear of your sad loss ccurn.

Happy to hear youโ€™re back on your quit, well done๐Ÿšญโœ…๐Ÿ’•๐ŸŒปxx

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glolinLONG TERM WINNER

The addiction has an incredible hold on us. Sorry to hear about the loss of your dog,

I had a similar experience almost 3 years ago now. I lost my little Jack dog then 6 weeks later lost my little Jill dog. I think Jill died of a broken heart as my two Maltese shitzhus were literally joined at the up.

Fortunately for me I never lit up, the thought did cross my mind. I know for me personally, one cigarette, one puff and I would be back smoking again so I make that conscious decision every day. NOPE- not one puff ever.

Be proud of yourself for quitting again, and may be worth looking at other ways to manage emotional occasions for the the future. ๐Ÿ€๐Ÿ€๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘

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coat2003

Sorry to hear about your dog. Dogs are the most faithful companions...The change brought by extra responsibility, our mental health neighbour, is remarkable...once you are ready to move on from this grief, technically restart...However long and the form it'll take. We all are different...set yourself an achievable goals. You get there....

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Sykes2919 Months Winner

So sorry to hear about your dog and don't be too hard on yourself for the relapse. X

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Sara_2611

Good luck with your new journey

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poncikNext attempt

So sorry to hear of your sad loss ccurn. I know well what it means. ๐Ÿ˜ฅ

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