So I started the day in a fabulous mood. Got up, got in the shower, slapped a patch on and was ready to take on the world. Went upstairs for a cup of coffee and there sat my significant other with a scowl on his face. I said good morning and asked how he was. Needless to say he was very cranky and snappy. I successfully remained calm and unruffled and did not give in to the instant urge to snap back but it truly turned my whole day around and left me feeling terrible. I texted him later to say that I was sorry he was having a bad morning and that if he wanted to talk about it I would listen and I hoped his day got better. He asked me if I honestly thought I've been easy to be around. He said he is very proud of me for quitting smoking but I've been super edgy and cranky whether I realize it or not and its hard on everyone (either I am in denial about how I have been acting or he is overreacting). Then he said there is a reason he gets so mad at me when I quit smoking and then start again. I apologize for venting but I have tried really really hard to reel in how I am feeling on the inside when I am cranky or edgy and not take it out on anyone else. When I do catch myself I try to turn my mood more positive and haven't had any outbursts or anything of the sort. I have been cleaning my house like a mad woman to relieve the tension I am feeling inside and surprisingly it sort of works. I realize that its not anyone's fault but my own that I started smoking and then quit smoking. I realize that I've tried and failed a few times. But I also feel like he is not really being very supportive. I realize that he woke up on the wrong side of the bed but I was in a great mood and he was not, and by saying what he said this morning I feel like maybe I can't do this. So instead of smoking I am writing this rant that might or might not make any sense lol. So for anyone reading this, what do you do when you get in an argument or get mad instead of smoking to calm yourself down and let it go?
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