today is day 11 cigarettes free .The first few days were agony , I cried , I was angry , I felt alone , I started remembering all of the times i smoked . triggers of situations were i usually smoke came to me strong (which is all the time lol).felt lost and confused , like I've lost someone important in my life .
I actually went to an early morning picnic with so many people from the hospital where my sister work , I don't socialize much and such situations make me wanna go somewhere quiet and smoke alone , but i didn't feel tempted to smoke it was fine .
I started watching many videos talking about how to quit . i read so much about " alan carr easy way to stop smoking " and how its effective and all. so i was curious to check it out, i didn't buy the book , i did however watch a video which is what the book is about with details. and Omg i found it so enlightening .
I really needed to watch such a video , where it opens your eyes on the fact that by quitting , you are not being deprived , you are not missing on anything and it helps you understand why you are addicted to it really, so you feel like wow okay thats stupid, why would i smoke ! how it doesn't calm you down , you feel calm after you smoke because your on a nicotine withdrawal all the time when you are not smoking , so by smoking you are feeding the addiction "little monster" so you feel better , so its a fake pleasure in a way, but of course the way they explain it is so much to the point and make you go "aha".
I dont wanna jinx it but I am doing good so far , and i pray that things get easier.
Also i am trying to be active and go out as usual and not avoid triggers because i have to face them . I have to get used to life without cigarettes .I just love the freedom where cigarettes won't control how i feel and how i react .
when it comes to food i expected to eat more but my appetite is pretty much the same, and finally!! my taste buds are back !
one more thing , i suddenly lost interest in coffee , and am your typical "Coffee addict"
I'd drink 5 cups of coffee a day , if its not a crazy day.
But am kinda just trying to focus on why am doing this and go with it day by day .and see how things go
Have a wonderful day