I felt like I was doing good! Like I'd got over the worst part.
I have been feeling angry or rather quick to anger. The only way I can describe it is it's like when I'm tired and hungry and things that wouldn't bother me suddenly make me furious. That's been a constant and something I have been dealing with and as time has gone on it's got better and easier.
Last night I had a disappointing workout at the gym (most days I leave the gym feeling amazing). For some reason I ended up feeling angry, irritable and depressed. My fiancee tried very hard to make me happy (feeding me when I got home etc...) but I was stuck in a bad mood, even screaming at her chinchilla for chewing on my door frame (we let her out to run around, and the chewing is a common thing which requires her being given a little tap on the bottom to remind her not to... she has an obsession with one side of one door frame).
Does anyone else experience days/evenings/times with such high levels of the symptoms of quitting?
I thought that being this far in i'd be passed the worst of it as things have generally got a lot easier and better this last week. Last night I just went a bit crazy.
I'm feeling better this morning and apologized to my wonderful fiancee multiple times for being so difficult last night and thanked her for her patience and support. We are going to visit her family for a few days which I find stressful, they are lovely (I couldn't ask for better future in-laws) but I don't speak their language (I'm learning it at a snails pace) which frustrates me. I need to make sure I keep self control as I don't wish to spoil any time with them through being an unreasonable angry/grumpy idiot.
P.S. I love this place, it's so amazing to be here and vent/express my feelings to people who truly understand what I'm going through and how I feel. The support is amazing! Thanks to all of you! It's strange how my days are brighter because someone I barely know online has said something helpful and/or encouraging.