I don't come on here very often now. I know I should to offer support to those in their quit attempt however the truth of the matter is I very rarely think of smoking now which means I don't think of logging in so apologies for hardly ever being here.
Today is a little different. I woke up this morning to a little alarm on my phone telling me that I had reached 1 year smoke free!! A whole year!! That's not something that I ever thought I would achieve looking back on those first few days, week and even months on my cold turkey quit.
Do I feel better? Well the answer to that varies. My lungs feel much better, I can breathe more easily, don't get so out of breath climbing stairs and I've lost that horrible tight feeling that I used to ignore every time I inhaled on my cig. However, I have had cold after cold (I hadn't had a cold for about 7 years prior to my quit), I suffered terribly from anxiety which is now under control thank goodness, I have put on a serious amount of weight which I'm now having to tackle and I've become one of these people that hates people blowing smoke in my face when I'm walking down the street. So do I regret giving up? Nope. Every time I see my mum gasping for her oxygen after having another ciggy (she has COPD) I remind myself that that is EXACTLY why I gave up. I don't want to be tied to an oxygen tank at 70 years old, I don't want to be confined to the house too scared to go anywhere in case of an exacerbation, and yes I'd like to lose weight but not to the point that the COPD has taken my poor mum. All in all it's been hard, there have been tears and tantrums, there has been a whole new wardrobe bought but I'm now officially an ex-smoker.
I would just like to point out that I wouldn't be in this position now if it hadn't been for this forum during my first seven days. If I hadn't found like minded people, going through exactly the same thing at the same time I think I would have given in to my 7 day wobble.
Thank you to you all for your help and support and have a happy, smoke free day