A strange calm has descended on our household - V seems to accept the need for me to have a break but explaining who is coming in and when has been a nightmare even though I have written it all out .Our main carer who is doing the bulk of the staying with V texted me and said was I all ready to go and had I packed . Packed ? Not yet occurred to me so I suppose I should think about it . It seems so odd to be doing something without V , we have rarely been apart in 47 years of marriage .Packing for one - a new experience - usually I throw a few things in a case and then have to get a bigger one to take all the things V can't get in hers - she was never a light traveller .The cat's been sulking all day- she knows something is up .Well I suppose I should put some things together . Whether I shall be able to keep you up to date I don't know . The last time I stayed in Rockford there was no electricity- the house was lit by gas and paraffin lamps . I think the pub had a generator which went at rather intermittent speeds consequently the lighting fluctuated between nearly bright and very dim - but maybe things have moved on - I rather hope not .Wi-fi ? who knows I very much doubt there will even be a mobile signal .I shall have to rely on my sister who is known as Technogran by her grandchildren because of her love of gadgetry - puts me to shame- I don't even have a smart phone - well I do but it is still in its box and there it is going to stay - upgrade indeed .I think I am writing so much rubbish to avoid looking at the empty grip on the floor beside me - now will I need two pairs of socks or should I take three just in case .