Pain Huxrts Feel Mentalx

[Crystallmatters]

I am concentrating on pain distraction and hurting like mad. You know I feel like this challenge is too much most of the time. Today I am trying to work out why does my pain come and go so quickly, I think it really make it difficult to deal with, I feel like this effects my mood so much, depending on the amount of pain I am in really adjusts my thought process. It is tiring in its self, so add the pain and bingo, I am going crazy, take some medication and extra to help. I am all over the place my brain like a car out of control.

I have to work hard at thinking all positive thoughts and in this moment I think, what's going on am I experiencing Chronic pain or real pain, well which ever it is effecting my thoughts, I am fighting to regain my balance.

So why does Pain not just stay switched on all the time why does it deliberately move around to torture me more. Yes I win again but it is hell, Its like now as I type this I am in loads of pain but I am excepting it sort of in a pissed off way,

So I ask you all , do you go in and out of pain ? and the levels changing all the time?.

Love to you all , I just want you to know you are not alone we are survivor's still mastering this horrible experience. xxxxxx