I have just completed the needs assessment & read the report. I haven't been on Health Unlocked for ages as every time I went to use the computer, it brought on serious anxiety. Reason being: I had to retire from my job toward the end of last year due to my declining health. It was an awful year & the support I thought I would receive (I had been there for 14 years) was not forthcoming at all. It was a real slap in the face as I had the kind of boss who sighed emails with love & kisses, & always called me 'friend'. I have known her for about 12 of those 14 years. The first contact I had from her was March this year to see if I had some paperwork she was after! That's it.
But now I have reclaimed my computer for reasons of 'self' only! I even went back on Facebook three days ago.
But I am feeling so left behind while family & friends get on with their lives - socialising, planning, doing etc etc. My best friend went off on a trip that once upon a (painless) time, we would do together. I was so happy for her (as she lost her husband this year), but at the same time envious. Then the guilt came for feeling envious - I have my husband... I told her my feelings & apologised. As usual she was warm & loving & said she understood. Made me feel guiltier than ever.
But I did join a 'gentle' exercise group. So proud of myself. But I can't keep up, so stay at the back of the room & do the best I can. It is only one hour but it knocks me out for that afternoon & all the next day. Embarrassing. I'm 61 years old & totally sick of myself.
However, now I am back online I can join again with like minded folk such as yourselves. I can post messages to my friends & family on Facebook. I can (try) to regain what I used to do so freely - creative writing. I can learn how to start a blog. I can...
After writing the last paragraph I feel much better, It is working already!!!
Positive vibes to all who are out there in the 'pain wilderness'. May Angels (& friends & family) watch over us all.