I can see it, looming, I'm having bloods taken on New Year's Eve and then chemo starts on Jan 3rd and I'm terrified to put it mildly. I've heard so many horror stories lately, one of the posts mentioned really low white cell count so their wife is ill, there was someone who caught an infection at the chemo suite, and the general who died after his fight with cancer was won and then had complications from pneumonia I assume was because his resistance was low is making me scared. Hubby won't talk about it, says I know what I have to do and to look on the bright side, I might have no side effects, whcih would be great. With the Norovirus going around too I'm not confident about going to the hospital which on their answerphone warns people not to go there unnecessarily because of contamination.
My son's girlfriend is five weeks pregnant and I felt a real pang that I won't have another baby, even though I'm 46, why would I have another baby. It was so strange. Maybe it's not having the choice I don't know, can you feel broody when your oestrogen levels have been quarterized.
Doc gave me calcium and vit D tabs, you have to chew them - yuk! Will wait til I see nurse on Monday before starting them, he said if I want to be tested for TREM2 it's a private test not available on the NHS, which seems silly considering the promotion for recognising Alzheimers, he had to search it first as he hadn't heard of it, so maybe awareness raising time for the health service, prevention over cure, well not cure actually, but being able to delay the onset of dementia must be good, especially as the chances of early onset increase with a hysterectomy pre-menopause.
I hope you all had a great Christmas.