Thank you so much everyone for your kind words. It gave me the lift I needed. I’m less teary ad even though I know it’ll come back again I’m making the most of feeling almost normal - maybe the sunshine yesterday helped as well. I’ve taken your advice and for the first time ever we have cleaners coming round today who will start doing a couple of hours a week (even though I did make hubby do that ridiculous middle class thing of tidying the house for them yesterday!!) I can’t tell you how much I am looking forward to having a lovely clean house even if it’s only for a few hours each week before my family turn it back into a student squat!! They do their best but to be honest I am a bit OCD about my house being clean and tidy and they just don’t seem to see what I see!!! How silly that the thought of a clean tidy house can make me feel so much better!!! Jonathan is having a great time with his work experience and tells me off for ringing him every day to make sure he’s ok because apparently he “can do things by myself Mum!”
Chemo couldn’t go ahead yesterday because neutrophils were low and while part of me just wants to plough in and get on with it I can’t lie - it’s quite nice to have a bit of respite - left chemo and went for lunch with hubby instead. Seeing the onc on Friday to discuss what we might do because this was only round 2 and bloods are already battered.
I hope everyone else is doing as well as they can on this rollercoaster - glad I’m on an up at the moment but relieved you’re all there for when I inevitably come crashing down again xxxx