I'm just writing my list of things to ask the consultant on the 4th, not exactly a Christmas list, one of the things I'm wondering is would just having carboplatin without the taxol be good enough, and my concerns about early onset dementia due to the lack of oestrogen, I've got dry skin my hair feels thinner and my nails are more brittle. The other thing is how do the cycles work, is it week one chemo, week 2 and 3 clear, week 4 chemo, what happens at Christmas, do they still have a chemo clinic on New Year day and how soon after the treatment can I fly. What happens if I have one session and feel ill so can't face going back.
I'm sure there is so much else but my mind keeps going blank when I think about it. I'm so tired of not recognising my body, had my first trip out post op today, went to visit FIL, supermarket and drop off a letter with accountnat with hubby, nice being out in the car with him. Going to drive my car this week as I will be 6 weeks post op, and I've had sex, phew it still works, was having moments of weepy self pity of what if it's not the same. Still got weepy wound where boil burst, but it's better than it was, still got a discharge only a little intermittantly and leaky bladder, I miss me, where my clothes used to fit, my hair didn't itch and I could look in the mirror.
Cut my toenails, just got to paint them and brave leg shaving so must be better. It seems a long time to recover from an operation, and still on the antibiotics which I'm sure helped. Had to shop on line, no retail therapy fun and watch the pennies, even less fun.