This is my first post on here and I'm hoping some of you lovely ladies can help me please. I was diagnosed with stage 3 ov just before Christmas and have been on chemo since January. I have just 3 weeks left of chemo and my treatment is going really well with my consultant saying that it couldn't be going better. However, I saw him for one of my regular check ups on Friday, and he said he's going to schedule me for a scan once my chemo is finished but he doesn't expect to find anything and i'll be in remission. Of course this is great news but he followed this by " but the cancer will come back and we generally treat patients with several treatments over several years".
I know this is probably true but I just can't handle thinking about it.
Well I left his office and just burst into tears. I know I should be happy that I'm coming to the end of treatment and have beaten this (God willing) but I don't know how to deal with the thought that it will return. Not only that but where will it return to? What kind of cancer will I get next time and will it be treatable? I just feel so sick and weepy to even think about it.
So i'm looking for some advise please to help me keep my positive head on so that when I am in remission, I live my life, and not just sit thinking well what's the point because it's going to come back anyway and i'm going to die soon because of it. How do you get back to living a normal life, without cancer being the first thing you think about in the morning and last thing at night as you fall asleep?
Thank you for reading