My surgery to remove the tumor from my ovary is on the 26th.. It was supposed to be about a week ago but the receptionist didn't realised my consultant wanted it done urgently so after them having to juggle everyone about I finally was fitted in. I'm 20 years old and was having problems ever since I had my daughter in november 2009, since then I have had 4 miscarriages and in and out of my doctors and a+e in pain but always got the same responce, doctors always thought it was pregnancy as I'm 'of pregnancy age' and I was always ignored. In june I was in and out my doctors and a+e hardly able to move I was in so much pain, I had been saying for about a year that I couldn't eat, even the smell of food made me feel full, yet the doctors kept telling me to come back in a few weeks and do a pregnancy test even though I was telling them I was no way pregnant, I was having loads of scans yet no one checked for cancer, I keep getting told I'm the wrong age and I've had a baby, but clearly it happens to young women and women that have had children as I'm a perfect example. As soon as my ca125 came back high I was being rushed in and out, having mri/ct scans, blood tests constantly. So now my operation is 9 days away. My surgeon didn't even realise it was me, when me and my mum walked in he started talking to me mum and seemed shocked when he realised it was me he would be operating on. He was so vague, didn't explain much, just said I'm being treated as a cancer patient, they will remove the tumor through keyhole surgery and then have a look around to see what's else they can see, he said if everything is stuck together as it looks then he will have to cut me open (I have no idea what he means is stuck together), they hope to save at least one of my ovaries, but he doesn't know yet, he won't know wether he can save both or if I'll be having a full histerectomy untill I'm opened up.. Everyone keeps saying its fine cause I have a baby already, but at 20 years old that doesn't stop it hurting that I may never be able to have another. I reallyt don't know what's going to happen. All my friends seem to be avoiding me now, like they think I'm contagious or something. During the day I'm fine I get on with things, but I live on my own with my 20 month old baby and I feel so sad. I've not cried to anyone yet, no one wants to talk about it with me, everyone just says "youl be fine" and then change the subject so I just carry on, its at night I think about it, and think about worse case senario and my little girl not having me around, she doesn't have a dad so if I'm gone she has no one.. Just feels all a bit sureal.