I saw my oncologist last week. It was fairly depressing, as she majored on the dangers and unpleasantness of chemo, and was generally rather discouraging - I got the impression she would have been happy if I'd said 'okay that sounds horrible, I won't bother!' She was a bit cross that I hadn't started the treatment already -'you should have begun last week' which was annoying, as it wasn't my decision. Anyway, I'm booked in for carboplatin next week. She agreed to defer adding avastin and taxol until the next time, as I have a graduation ceremony on the 17th which I want to be reasonably healthy for. Feeling apprehensive!