Day 8 of chemo 3 and doing well. All in all, I think I had 4 bad days last month . So far this month, I am feeling much better and first week was better than last 2 chemos! Brilliant! My body is obviously getting used to this drug and hopefully destroying the cancer. With Caelyx you have a scan after chemo 4 so cant wait for that.
First week of chemo is usually bad but this month I was scheduled to go to the Lion King on Wednesday last. I was determined to make it and I did! yes girls we can do it and most of all I find that I must believe in myself! Its not that people don't encourage you but, sometimes its easy to encourage us to take the easy option and stay at home. (maybe I am wrong) Anyway, I am finished with all that and know now that I have to push myself a bit. Is it a case that we are put in the 'sick' category and should be well behaved patients?? I can't but think that there is a bit of that going on and that I allow it in my head. The truth is that nobody who doesn't have cancer has a clue of what goes on inside our heads!
The Lion King was terrific - one of the best shows I have ever seen! Go to it if you can. The puppets, costumes, music etc just great.
Another problem that I seem to have is should I holiday abroad or at home during chemo? my confidence must have taken some knock because I find myself a bit scared to travel(even though I always travelled at every opportunity!). If I do get sick or whatever, it will be my own fault and maybe it is easier to stay at home - or am I totally idiotic?????????(comments please)
These are my thoughts in this third month- so lucky that I am feeling well enough to have these thoughts!
The big question is I suppose - does one put ones life on hold during chemo? but this is my life and I could be on chemo for as long as I live!!