Hi folks, today I just feel so rotten - would welcome some words of comfort. Five weeks now on Abatacept injections and the only change is that the side effects have kicked in....the pain in feet is worse if anything. All I've done this morning is go to the shops on scooter, then tackled a heap of forms that needed filling in. Then the exhaustion hit, and I just had to lie down. Surrounded by mounds of stuff that needs doing, no-one else here, and all I can do is lie down. To make it worse, I'd half-committed to a few days away next week, but I just KNOW now I won't manage.....it's a 5 hour train journey, on my own, and I just feel so stupid to even think I could do it. How does ANYBODY with this ****** awful disease ever manage??? I haven't had a break for 2 years, (hospital does NOT count.) I'm in tears as I'm typing this, just fed up being ill, alone and exhausted. NO-ONE understands - I look fine, therefore there's not much wrong with me. Even my GP doesn't 'get it', he more or less says "Why do you need help?!" Plus, I think there's more problems with my thyroid, I was always a bit underactive for years before the RA started, so have taken levothyroxine in various amounts for a long time......had lots of blood tests done a month ago, but could only get a phone appt with usual GP, and I had a list of stuff a mile long to ask about, so I sort-of didn't really think much of it when he said "your thyroid's verging on the low side......umm.....but I think we'll leave your dose as it is" - but I DO feel cold all the time (except when I'm sweating!!), and my hair seems drier than usual, and yes my mood's down but when isn't it??? It's all so vague - then I started fretting about could I have autoimmune thyroid disease and they just haven't noticed? And I feel guilty when I end up crying, because I know that really I could be a LOT worse....Sorry for ranting, but there just doesn't seem like any light at the end of the tunnel at the moment.