I am so having a bad day. Haven't slept very well again. My joints ache as does my knee. I am getting very worried about my knee as it is getting worse not better,i know until i get it repaired it will be bad. It's just getting me down. No mtx so my joints are suffering. I try ever so much to be optomistic but sorry friends i can't be today. My back is hurting every time i start to do anything. I know thats because i'm carrying too much weight,but how can i lose weight when i can barely walk. My mind tells me i can do thing my body says no.
Had a blood test last week and the results are back,but i can't see the doctor who is treating me until monday afternoon,where's the sense in that. I know there are people out there who are a lot worse than i am,but it is not helping me.
I pinning so much on thie knee being repaired that i wonder if i'm depending too much on the outcome. Will i disapointed if i don't get the result i want and need yiu bet i will. I am sure it will come out ok,but the big bad demons keep trying to get in and unsettle me.
At least i am alive unlike pc rathbone,he has had a lot of troubles since he got shot 2yrs ago,so i should be grateful i know.
Just having a down day,will try to be cheerful another time. xx