ITS BEEN A WHILE IM AFRAID, BUT I AM IN NEED OF A GOOD OLD MOAN, SO HERE GOES. THE LAST 2 YEARS HAVE BEEN HELL ON EARTH. I HAVE DEVELOPED SEVERE CHRONIC NEUTROPENIA AND MY NEUTROPHILS HAVE BEEN VERY LOW THROUGHOUT THAT TIME. HIGHEST POINT 0.8 LOWEST POINT (AT PRESENT 0.1). THEY PUT IT DOWN TO MY RA BUT I AM NOT CONVINCED. I HAVE HAD RA FOR 25 PLUS YEARS BUT NOT ALWAYS BAD. I DONT THINK I HAVE A PROPER DIAGNOSIS YET. I GO EVERY MONTH TO THE HAEMATOLOGIST WHO CHECKS MY BLOOD AND SENDS ME ON MY WAY.
I AM DUE TO HAVE A HYSTERECTOMY ON 12TH MARCH TO REMOVE THE MIRENA COIL THAT WAS FITTED ABOUT 11 YEARS AGO NOW. AFTER LOTS OF SCANS ETC THEY HAVE DISCOVERED THAT THIS IUD WAS NOT EVEN INSIDE MY WOMB BUT HAD BEEN INSERTED THROUGH MY UTERINE WALL INTO THE MUSCLES ON THE OUTSIDE OF MY WOMB AND THERE IT HAS BEEN ALL THESE YEARS. I JUST KNEW SOMETHING WAS WRONG. MY FAMILY THINK THAT THIS FOREIGN BODY INSIDE ME MAY HAVE CAUSED MY WHITE BLOOD CELLS TO BE SO LOW BUT THE DOCS DONT THINK SO. THEY MAY NOT OPERATE IF MY NEUTROPHILS DONT RISE A BIT. I SPENT 6 MONTHS IN ISOLATION IN 2012 BECAUSE OF GETTING NEUTROPENIC SEPSIS, AND AGAINST DOCTORS I WENT BACK TO WORK BECAUSE I COULDNT KEEP MYSELF LOCKED AWAY ANY LONGER. THE DOCS SAID I WAS WALKING A TIGHTROPE BY GOING BACK TO WORK BUT WHAT COULD I DO. I HAVE HAD 18 MONTHS BACK AT WORK BUT NOW I AM NOW OFF WORK AGAIN WITH THE 0.1 READING AND MY COMPANY WONT PAY ME MY WAGES ANYMORE AND HAVE EVEN STOPPED MY ANNUAL LEAVE ACCRUING. TALK ABOUT KICKING YOU WHEN YOU ARE DOWN. THATS WHAT YOU GET FOR 20 YEARS LOYALTY TO A FIRM.
I WAS ALSO TOLD I HAVE A SERIOUSLY LOW VITAMIN D LEVEL. I HAD A DEXA SCAN WHICH I HAVENT GOT THE RESULTS FOR YET. MY JOINTS AND MUSCLES HURT ALL OVER MY BODY. I AM ON HYDROXYCHLOROQUINE AND WAS ON CYCLOSPORIN BUT THEY HAVE TOLD ME TO STOP TAKING THAT BEAUSE MY NEUTROPHILS ARE SO LOW AND THEY HAVE PUT ME ON ANTIBIOTICS. THE CYCLOSPORIN WORKS AGAINST ANTIBIOTICS.
I AM WORRIED ABOUT THE HYSTERECTOMY, EVERYONE SAYS OH YOU WILL BE BETTER ONCE THAT IS OUT, BUT THERE WAS NOTHING WRONG WITH MY WOMB IN THE FIRST PLACE. MOST WOMEN HAVING THIS SURGERY ARE USUALLY MUCH YOUNGER THAN ME. I HAVE TURNED 60 NOW AND NOT IN THE BEST OF HEALTH AND IM WORRIED ABOUT THE SURGERY, WORRIED ABOUT THE BLOOD, WORRIED ABOUT PAYING MY BILLS, LOSING MY JOB, LOSING MY HOME, BEING WORSE AFTER, ON AND ON AND ON. OK THATS ENOUGH THEN, MOAN OVER. THANKS FOR READING. LINDA XXX
PS I REALLY DONT KNOW HOW I GOT A YELLOW FLOWER ON HERE