75 days smoke free

[Kstargirl]

So, I have made it to 75 days smoke free. 3/4 through to 100! Still feeling extremely positive however today really tested me. My 16yo who moved out in January because I have morals and values told me he stays at his gf house in her bed. I left immediately after he told me and went to my car and cried. That was a moment that really tested me. I didn’t feel the need to smoke, but I felt the need to give up caring. Everything I have done for the betterment of my child is being undone and I feel helpless. It’s all out of spite.

I picked myself up later in the day, dusted myself off and got on with my work load. Tomorrow is a new day, the kids and I have to fly out to attend nans funeral on Friday. With our crazy family who feel like there is nothing but hate and spitefulness, it’s going to be an interesting time. I have literally gone through my phone and Facebook and blocked or deleted any negative influences in my life. I want to concentrate on my and my happiness.

Hopefully my mums estate was finalised today so I can wipe my hands and move on after Friday. I am to important to give up on me and my family.

I feel so in control right now, I feel empowered, I don’t want to loose this

Thanks for your support everyone, I couldn’t of done this with out you.

[KathieO 100 Days Smoke Free]

Good luck in your journey. I can’t imagjne all that at once. Stay strong and stay positive. 🙏🏻

[Kstargirl 1 Year Smoke Free in reply to KathieO]

It’s certainly been an interesting time. All I can do is grow and learn from these experiences as some things are out of my control but I can control smoking. It’s one thing I do have a say over

[KathieO 100 Days Smoke Free in reply to Kstargirl]

You are absolutely correct

[RoisinO1 Administrator 3 Years Smoke Free]

Well done on 75 days Kstargirl - wishing you strength for your Nans funeral, here for you

[Jwk1962 1 Year Smoke Free]

It does get a little easier each time you get that feeling that a cigarette will make everything better and you don't give in.🚭🔠 Jeff

Have yourself a great smoke free weekend😐

[Kstargirl 1 Year Smoke Free]

Thanks everyone. This forum is fabulous and so supportive. I’m now 85 days smoke free. I read everyday to hear everyone’s stories. It’s just getting easier and easier and I’m starting to focus on the other things too that I use to enjoy. I’m so happy I quit. Thanks again for all your support 😃

[RoisinO1 Administrator 3 Years Smoke Free in reply to Kstargirl]

3 months smoke free now Kstargirl - how is things?

[Kstargirl 1 Year Smoke Free in reply to RoisinO1]

Hi Roisin01! Thanks for checking in on me, yes I’m doing fabulous! I am stoked to be here, my mum would be so proud! I brought a treadmill a week ago and have started working off these extra kgs. I finally feel like my energy levels are starting to pick up. I will never go back to smoking. I think it use to be to easy to because it was cheap but now it’s so expensive and I can’t see the point in it too. I love my new smoke free life. I feel so happy when customers come into my shop and I can talk to them with out putting my head down or being worried about bad breath, yellow fingers or smelling. I’m proud, I’m really proud

[RoisinO1 Administrator 3 Years Smoke Free in reply to Kstargirl]

100 days smoke free now Kstargirl - yes indeed your Mam is looking down on you with so much pride, well done! You should be so proud of yourself also!

[Kstargirl 1 Year Smoke Free in reply to RoisinO1]

Hello Roisin01. Yes over 100 days now! I had one of those days today where I threw something at the wall and said “I could quite easily go and smoke right now. I didn’t though. Smoking would of not helped my day that’s for sure. I stayed smoke free and come home this afternoon and slept. Now sleeping sure helped!

Yesterday was my mums 1st year since she grew her angel wings and today my brothers birthday. I am really starting to feel some mementom with saving money too. That sure feels good not having to race to the shop every day. Oh I ran around the block last night at a marathoners pace but hey, that’s a huge accomplishment

[RoisinO1 Administrator 3 Years Smoke Free in reply to Kstargirl]

Fair play to you Kstargirl - I am sure your Mam is looking down on you with such pride - wishing you continued strength, you are doing great