I knew today would be hard. All the shops shut and the ones open are jam-packed.
Got triggered outside a supermarket by some women smoking, they were old so i thought, "i can smoke and get to old age too".
I've had a couple of herbal cigarettes, the ones that smell of bonfires. Not great but helped a bit.
I need this to get easier soon or I'll crumble.
Bought a pack of 20 Marlboro but going to take them back for a refund.
In the bath now.
Sorry to read Onedigeridoo - I promise, it does get easier, I can see you so want this and are fighting hard, it will pay off, I found when I initially quit, the stink of smoke made feel physically, you have to get the mindset that you are not depriving yourself - feel sorry for those ladies you see smoking - nobody knows what is going on in peoples lives, for all you know they could have a serious smoking related illness - keep busy - you really are doing so well - keep up your reading on addiction and post anytime about anything.
If not got the refund on the cigs yet, destroy them immediately, you are going to put another unnecessary stressor on yourself - have you anything you love doing - cooking and baking and cleaning was my savior - what about gardening, a spot of painting? Listening to your favourite music, watch a good auld comedy movie.....
Wishing you strength,
Thanks Roisin, i got a refund for them. Might do some gardening this week if the weather is ok. After my bath i felt a lot stronger.
Stay in the bath!! Well, at least until the hot water runs out 😨
Do not cave in.
Get rid of that pack of Marlborough as soon as you can even if it means you ruin them as opposed to taking them back for a refund. Just get the damn things out of the house and away!
It WILL get easier.
Do not be disheartened. Keep going. You've got this.
Post as much as you need to. ☺
Thanks Mushen, just having a bad couple of days. I hate bank holidays (i worked Friday and Saturday anyway). Tomorrow the shops will all be open and i can go to the café i usually go to and get buses again. Also my partner abandoned me today.
Sorry to moan and complain so much! It's not so bad.
We all have days when it gets too much and when you are quitting smoking, things can easily get on top of you. I found that quitting requires an awful lot of emotional energy, it takes such a massive effort to keep going. Moan as much as you need to especially if it helps to keep you from smoking.
Roll on tomorrow!
Thanks Mushen. I'm at my parents' house now and i can cope alright for now. I might treat myself to some chocolate or something. It's not impossible to do this.
Absolutely it is not impossible. Have a little faith in yourself. This is one mountain that you can and will climb. It just takes time and a whole load of effort.
Get the chocolate. Definitely get the chocolate!! ☺
Keep posting. We can help you through this. ☺
Thank you Mushen, i will try to be patient.
Moan, tell us your good days (I promise, you will have good days!!), thats what this community is for. I am just after getting a flashback of this stage of my quit, for the first few months hated weekends and couldn't wait to get back to work - one weekend I spent it scrubbing tiles on the bathroom wall - I was like a mad woman poccessed 
- Nothing like some chocolate to make you feel better, no excuse to eat it anyway, thats what I have been telling myself all weekend 
And....it definitely is not impossible but very achievable - 35 of us regular members are over 1 year smoke free and living it up in the penthouse - see below
healthunlocked.com/nosmokin........
Well done to everybody in the Penthouse!
RoisinO1 my evening was pretty good, only had minor cravings.
hi Onedigeridoo
its so hard seeing people smoking.you wanna join them.
its the pattern the routine you got to change you have done this thing for many years,how can we stop 😈
we can stop,we can do this 😁
I did bike run last Sunday and as usual some bikers got off bikes and lit up ,I looked and thought that was me.a slave/,addicted to the sticks ,
you are doing good,keep possative.keep fighting,you will win,it will get better
take care 😊
keep kicking 😎
Yes, you're a slave when you're addicted, you need to stop what you're doing every hour or half-hour, and it just makes you miserable when you aren't able to smoke which is so often nowadays, in cinemas, at work, at airports etc and it ruins your sense of smell and stops you taking deep breaths and makes you out of breath walking up stairs and a hundred other bad things.
you don't need them ,they need you
fresh air,better health,more money in your pocket 😁
it can be all good 😁
take care 😁
keep kicking 😁
do treat yourselth 😁
forgot to add I was borderline COPD.
now it looks like I'm a lot better,certainly no worse 😁
Thanks thinlizzy, not smoking is good. Just having a mild craving now but it's not too bad.
How are you giving up? Cold turkey patches champix etc?
Champix Laura. It does help, i think.
Hey Onedigeridoo - how is today going for you?
Saw this and thought of ya
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Today is going well thanks, dare I say it, it's getting a bit easier now.
The 4 D's seem like a good idea. Delay, distract, deep breathe and drink water. Good advice. Thanks Roisin.
I just read your post from yesterday about you seeing some women who were old smoking and you thinking "I can smoke and get to old age too".
This was my reality of continuing to smoke until the age of 64. I wheezed and coughed every morning, even on the slightest exertion. Stairs just about killed me. I had to rest between flights to get my breath back. My chest felt sore if I took a deep breath. The real kicker came in February when my GP told me he saw early signs of COPD on my chest x-ray. That was what scared me into quitting!
COPD is a progressive disease, the end result: your sacs will become so distended with mucus you can't absorb enough oxygen, making you constantly breathless. You will need to rely on inhalers every day, and usually end up with an O2 tank as your constant companion. You really can't do anything or go anywhere because you're struggling just to breath. I know because I've nursed people with it.
I knew better than to smoke, but convinced myself I could carry on because they helped me cope with whatever excuse I could find, and yeah, I really enjoyed my cigarettes. That chest x-ray was my wakeup call. I started on Champix, smoked my last cig on Feb 28. Champix really helped me, because it took away the cravings and also enjoyment of smoking.
I'll be 50 days smoke free tomorrow and it's so worth it! My lungs are happy now I'm not puffing all that tar into them , no more wheezing or coughing, and I do stairs!
Hang in there One, you are doing BRILLANT!!
My dad had COPD taurean7 . Unfortunately he continued to smoke until it was too late. You're doing the right thing. Congratulations on 50 days for tomorrow!
Glad to see you've had a good day as well Onedigeridoo . You deserve a bit of a break.
Thank you Nozmo, I'm convinced that the ecig with zero nicotine liquid actually had some nicotine in it. Because the past three days were hard, but today was alright actually. I played darts for a team and we lost but it was good fun. Most of my team mates are ex-smokers so it's good to have that camaraderie.
Sorry to hear about your Dad Nozmo.
A real heartwarming but honest post taurean7 , I got the fright too into quitting, woke up in the early hours of the morning coughing and not able to breath and decided there and then, enough was enough and a cigarette has not touched my lips since - that was 19 months ago, I possibly very well may have developed COPD if I didn't stop, never looked back 
Yes don't forget all the health problems that might develop if you start smoking again, don't let your guard down, remember there's no such thing as just one.
Congratulations on 50 days taurean. If you can do 50 days, maybe you can do 5 months, I'm sure you can.
I had slight temptations when I went to the pub today and my friend was smoking, but it wasn't too hard and there were some other former smokers there who helped me just by being there. It's nice to know that I'm not the only one who's a former smoker, as it were.
Smoking is a stupid waste of time. It's so boring. What could be more boring than standing outside on your own for five minutes smoking? Far better to be inside where the fun is happening.
Stay strong and thank you very much for your support.
Relapsed, and will try again soon x
It's taken a couple of months but....
Hello!
Still vaping....
Very restless