I quit a wee while ago and ended up smoking again. I was finding it really hard emotionally and my mood was really bad. I suspect more to do with forgetting to put patches on and having the odd one wasn't helping......
So I have failed the NHS free patches scheme but on Saturday decided enough was enough and bought patches myself and started after one last cig on Sunday morning Only had 3/4 puffs as I felt ready to stop. And it tasted horrid. Had my patches on since and even though its a really difficult time (PMS and friends dad dying) I am determined to power on through. I think before I was thinking it was easy, 'patch on no urge to smoke so I can put a patch on tomorrow' kind of thing. Now I realise I am properly addicted and it WILL be hard and that's ok. I have ordered 4 weeks worth of patches from boots as they are on sale at the mo and they come to the same amount as I would spend in one week on fags - gulp!
I am really serious this time but also taking it a day at a time and trying to normalise putting patches on every day and not look for excuses (patches falling off etc) and will start keeping one in my laptop bag in case I forget in the morning.
I am very overweight so smoking is not helping health wise at all so it has to go and I miss being a non smoker, it was lovely!
Sorry for rambling but I am hoping posting on here lots will help.
Thanks for reading and Happy Tuesday everyone.