At the end of my third day I'm actually amazed I've got this far. I've had a lot of arguments inside my head today.
Just one won't hurt.....
You don't really smoke very much so it can't hurt you.....
Just have one now and then, it'll be fine....
Then I watched my husband standing outside this evening having his 97th cigarette and I wondered just how much time I've wasted standing out there staring into space and smoking.
Today wasn't too bad actually because I spent a large part of it with non-smoking friends so I wouldn't have been able to smoke anyway.
My one problem is that I'm a bit of a rebel. Tell me NOT to do something and I'll HAVE to do it! I've always been this way. Broke all the rules at school etc. So tell me I can't smoke and I immediately want to. I'm telling myself instead, that I can smoke if I want to. I just don't want to at the moment. Well that's my story for today anyway.