Hello everybody! I just voted for our referendum here in Greece, and a strong urge to smoke made me write this in my "quit smoking diary" here.
I am already in my 102nd day. I really cant believed I have come thus far without smoking a puff, cold turkey. The road was and still is hard. Looking back, it was really difficult for me just because I loved smoking so much! I have smoked more than 16 years for at least 25 a day. The 100's. What I am afraid now is the urges of the moment! Cigarettes are always around me as many of my friends and family smoke, and I just fear Im gonna grab one and have it on the spur of the moment. I still feel under the spell. I unfortunately do not think myself as an ex-smoker but still as a smoker in the process to give it up. Doesnt that suck? Thus I am not sure of myself, and do not celebrate much my achievement. But I guess it works as I am smoke free for some days.
Another thing I am afraid of, is the idea that this quit martyrdom woll come to an end at some point and I will start smoking again. I know that this is crap thinking and try not to pay attention, but I wish I was more adamant about it. Anyway I guess I come here when I just want to smoke and thus all the complaining and grungingness. In reality, most of the time I dont even think about it.
The latest situation in Greece is exciting. There r people who given the financial circumstances they will give up smoking, and there r those who think a cigarette will help handle all the excitement!
Have a most amazing (NO) Sunday!