I'm having another attempt to give up smoking. I was on a cold turkey quit for a few days but just couldn't make it :mad: I ended up in tears in the end, this is what this nasty drug can do, I don't mind saying.
Last night I caved in and ended up smoking a few cigarettes.
I suppose allot of people would then give it at least two or three weeks before trying again, but to be honest I just don't want to, I want to go straight back to not smoking. I'm going to try using the gum this time, I have some I had stashed away from a previous quit attempt but I never actually stopped smoking while I was using it :eek: This time I'm attempting to not smoke at all and just chew the gum when I go mad.
The last cigarette I smoked was at 11:48am today, sunday 2nd December (yes I wrote the time down, sad eh ) It was raining outside and windy and the weather is generally terrible. I remember when I was quitting before, and the weather was like this, longingly thinking how nice it would be to be smoking a cigarette, looking out of the window at the rain and wind. This time I had the cigarette and was looking out of the window longingly thinking about how nice it would be NOT to be smoking, and not enjoying the cigarette at all.
I think this shows how much of a fantasy we make of smoking, its the idea of cigarettes thats so attractive, but when we are actually smoking them, we never really enjoy them.
I look forward to reading other peoples experiences on the forum and hopefully this time next week I will still be smoke free, with the help of the nicotine gum and the support of the forums here