How I get through this third month.

[nsd_user663_63864]

Hi everyone! I realize that my posts here are something like my personal diary. I wish I had written more early on my quit though. I would read that now and remember more vividly why and how it all happened. As I am getting through this third month, I find it that it is maybe the most crucial period in my quit. I get bold and thoughts about smoking again one or once in a while its ok, do come in mind. This morning I remembered what I said to my self every morning in the first weeks: "I will not smoke today". At some point I forgot it, but today, I said it again to myself. Seems that I still have to take one day per day.

One thing that I find it useful to keep me from smoking is a feel of shame. I feel that people around me will lose respect if I start smoking again, and I will lose huge amounts of confidence. It would be all a great big fuss for nothing, plus 20 pounds fatter.

One more thing...some days ago When I had these intense thoughts to smoke etc, I asked a friend of mine to give me a Marlboro lights, the brand I used to smoke. On my first two weeks I kept a packet of cigs. in my car and said to myself "ok if you want to smoke you can. There they are." And then I chose not to smoke. At some point I got rid of the whole packet and weeks started flying by. So when my thoughts started again some days ago, I asked my friend to give me a cigarette which I kept in my car and still have there. Strangely enough much of my thoughts subsided and I felt I am more in control. I guess the prospect of not smoking ever again, panicked me a bit. So yeah, now more relaxed I guess....well its also the summer that is here and all the summer things I used to do as a smoker I guess I have to learn all over again as an ex smoker. Anyway...thanks again for everything.

Well.....as I write the title of this and get ready to press the post button, I realize that I havent writen at all about the amazing benefits odf not smoking. How my breathing has really improved, how I am not panting in every step, how sex is so much better, how my skin feels great, how the prospect of losing the extra 20 pounds makes me feel like a superman! Have a most amazing Sunday!

[nsd_user663_63741]

I too get days where I think I really want a cig, think it's normal at this stage. As long as we don't give in I'm sure these feelings will diminish. I spend most of my time outdoors here in Spain and frequent the many bars here and yes it's hard sometimes but I love being a non smoker and all the health and wealth benefits that come with it. Just keep reminding yourself of these benefits,

[nsd_user663_64024]

Hi Antonis

I'm pretty new to this forum ie 05/15, I for 1 am proud of you for getting so far, I hope to one day to get to where you are, it's tough and we on the forum all know how tough it can get, but we are proud of your achievement, we are rooting for you to get through this difficult time, any probs keel posting and reading you would be amazed his much this effects you

[nsd_user663_58050]

You're doing great staying with your non-smoker status, Antonis. I know that sense of boldness, almost complacency when we 'forget' about why we wanted to stop in the first place, and that it was really that bad for us.......................IT REALLY WAS THAT BAD FOR US! Really.