It seems crazy that I have this fearful dialogue with myself that all will NOT be well if I quit. Its so cunning. Smoking makes me feel bad but SEEMINGLY smoking convinces me that smoking is the solution to make me feel better. Does this make sense? I'm trying this forum for the first time. I think it will help to have you folks on my side to ward off the crazy thinking. I've not been able to quit on my own and actually I'll convince myself that Ill keep it secret so if I fail I'll only disappoint myself. This already feels good to be able to get this out of my head. I'm hoping I don't smoke tomorrow.