Feeling Miserable and Sorry for myself

The rheumatoid has decided to raise it's ugly head, my back, hip and knee are absolutely killing me, I'm so cream crackered I can barely hold my head up and I'm still stuck in year end as the auditors aren't due in until next Monday - Arghhh :mad: But on the positive side, I can honestly say I do not want a cig - I wish I was at home so I could curl up on the sofa and watch despicable me whilst sipping a large mug of hot chocolate, but the thought of having to keep going up and downstairs to get a fix is frankly ludicrous to me at the moment, I can't believe I used to force myself before when I could barely move. Also I don't know whether the condition was aggravated by the fags as this is the first attack since I quit - I put this one down to being stressed at work and deciding to go for a four hour walk yesterday! I always go to extremes when I need to blow the cobwebs away :o Rant over, as the header says I'm just feeling a wee bit sorry for myself at the mo :p

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  • Awww hun have a (((((HUG))))))

    It sounds properly miserable for you, I really hope you feel better soon!!

  • Crikey Jen, you deserve to feel sorry for yourself being in that much pain.

    Arthritis and rheumatism don't get the recognition they deserves for being debilitating does they? Everyone just thinks that, because they are so common, you should just keep going. It's so unfair, most people would be off sick with the kind of pain they give you.

    I feel for you petal and I hope 5pm gets here quickly for you so you can go home and try to get comfy.

    Sending hugs

    Molly x

  • Thank you both - I don't usually do the feeling sorry for myself thing but today is an exception :o

  • :mad::mad:

    Poor you...I second that. Definitely some pampering needed tonight I think..:)

  • Big hugs me babber... The weather doesn't help these blasted ailments, I have fibro so know how u feel... And I work in accounts so year end is a right mother effer ur right.... Perhaps a long hot bath and a large vino might ease ur pain?

    Take care

    Donna x

  • Hope tomorrow is a better day for you. Supportive hugs being sent your way.:)

  • Thank you everyone, I am feeling so much better today, stayed wrapped up on the sofa last night, the OH cooked dinner (beefburger in a bun - but he did it!) I dosed myself up with painkillers - sobbed my way through Coronation Street (I haven't watched that since the tram crash!) had a really hot shower as we only have a small bath and I have trouble sitting down in it when this happens, then bed! Had another blast in the shower this morning and some more painkillers and feel almost human now. I'm hoping the flare up was due to the excessive exercise Sunday as I am soooo much better now!

  • Glad you're feeling so much better today Jennine :) That's fab :D

  • Second that,so relieved to see you feeling better Jennine.:p

    We still feel sad and depressed and jealous and happy and anxious and every other emotion,after ciggies-just as we did before we quit. Only difference is that before we quit,we leaned on cigs as some sort of-well some sort of what,support?:confused: Standing strong and free and coping with various emotions in a natural way,is much better,isn't it ;)

    Thanks Max, I can honestly say I would have felt worse if I was still smoking as I would have had to made the trip down two flights of stairs to stand at the back door, shiver and cough like a hag which would hurt like hell, before making the trip back up again, complaining the whole while about how much pain I was in!! It's amazing what that addiction made me do! And it's amazing the little reinforcements I keep getting against ever picking up a deathstick again!!! Blimey, I sound like a motivational speaker - focus on the positives etc etc, but it really does help :D

  • Hello and sorry you are not too good

    The rheumatoid has decided to raise it's ugly head, my back, hip and knee are absolutely killing me, I'm so cream crackered I can barely hold my head up and I'm still stuck in year end as the auditors aren't due in until next Monday - Arghhh :mad: But on the positive side, I can honestly say I do not want a cig - I wish I was at home so I could curl up on the sofa and watch despicable me whilst sipping a large mug of hot chocolate, but the thought of having to keep going up and downstairs to get a fix is frankly ludicrous to me at the moment, I can't believe I used to force myself before when I could barely move. Also I don't know whether the condition was aggravated by the fags as this is the first attack since I quit - I put this one down to being stressed at work and deciding to go for a four hour walk yesterday! I always go to extremes when I need to blow the cobwebs away :o Rant over, as the header says I'm just feeling a wee bit sorry for myself at the mo :p

    Hi sorry you are not feeling too good, I have the same condition so I know what you are going through. I also think cigs made it worse as I would still crawl outside to have one regardless. Hope the pain eases soon.

    Congratulations on your quit by the way, we have similar dates :D:D

    Margie

  • Onwards and upwards

    I know the feeling mate no fags for 10months,but I've got a tumour in right shoulder ,I have myeloma which is bone cancer ,I have glaucoma in one eye ,I wear two hearing aids ,apart from that I'm brand new ,and I don't want a ciggie either ,I know what you mean when you feel a little sorry for your self ,but you have to make the most of what you have ,chin up mate:)

  • Blimey Alan, life can be so cruel. Your positivity is shining through though and certainly puts my self centred whinging in perspective. My chin is well and truly pointing upward now. Your spirit is inspirational, all the best to you ;)

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