Sorry all for not posting much lately, so much going on and I felt I was progressing nicely.....you've no idea of the life changes made in the past few months.
Anyway without going into details, I am on day 47 wow, I have never gone this many days without smoking and I am really super proud but at the same time have been horribly depressed for the last three days. I started my new job this week and it seems like it will be an excellent fit but I can't shake my desire to smoke for some reason ugh!!!!
On a scale of 1 to 10, desire is hovering at an even 8. Wtf, where is this coming from? (Rhetorical question of course) :eek:
I keep telling myself to just hang in there and this was going to happen eventually but the reality of it is a bit staggering. I really felt like I was making progress here. Needless to say this is very depressing......
I can say I have come far enough to recognize that a cigarette will neither solve anything or make me feel better so I am not going to give in to the desire. That said I still don't feel better for it.
I'm sorry, so many others have given so much that I hardly feel I've room to complain, I'm so dam mad at myself right now.
I quit drinking last January and I now find myself having the odd cocktail because I can't face both demons at once and this time I simply won't give up this quit which may leave me with a different problem on the other end.....argghhhhhhhh so frustrated.