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[nsd_user663_24115]

Hi folks long time no see. been very busy with my diploma which i passed YYYaaayyy. Unfortunately i started smoking again in march /april this year. I blame the stress of dealing with bureaucracy and red tape which seems to be the dominant force in my life these days.. start my degree in sept at camberwell in london which means i have to give up my home which i dont wish to do. or shall i accept Manchester , not as good a course and less opps but i keep my home . ohhh decisions like this remind me of quitting shall i shan't i can i do it ? what if i miss it and cave in . what if what if . hope your all doing well . I plan to quit again . Mash

[__steve__]

Come to London. Better course and more opps. Plus we love Mancs.

Congrats on your pass, and your new quit

S xx

[nsd_user663_24115]

In that case it looks-like London then, Its only for 3 yrs then i can collect my private pension buy a cheap mobile home, get a dog and ride into the sunset.Bliss.

[nsd_user663_40405]

buy a cheap mobile home, get a dog and ride into the sunset.Bliss.lol What a happy thought

[nsd_user663_60964]

My vote is for London too, Mash. I've posted a reply on the Nov Quitters social group page but just wanted to say 'Hello' in passing

[nsd_user663_24115]

Thanks for your replies folks. i THINK THIS FORUM IS VERY SPECIAL. (oops left the caps lock on, ) but it probably deserves to be capitalized. I'm looking forward to quitting again and getting to know you all. its a dreadful addiction , i've quit several times for quite long periods, I can tell you now its so easy to start again ,it just takes one unguarded moment and one puff and all of the good stuff thats been built from being free comes crumbling and tumbling down . You become a slave again , full of fear and believing it to be something you choose to do . Its not a choice its a need. I can feel the health slipping away from me. wheezing and the stink which I pretend isnt there, and then there is the cost . Time to get real again, I loved the freedom of being a quitter . getting ready for the challenge.

[nsd_user663_24115]

Opted for Manchester in the end. I never want to make a decision like that again but I think deciding when to quit is a decision i need/want to make soon. so here i am again in a place i've been b4. Gosh its hard choosing between smoker or non smoker .I'd forgotten about this part of quitting.

[nsd_user663_62294]

Hi Mash, nice to meet you. Good luck on your quit (if you decide to), most people don't manage it straight away, it takes more than one attempt.

[nsd_user663_59644]

Just stopped by to say welcome, and what ever you decide is right for you.

So look forward to your future posts.

Ps well done you

[nsd_user663_24115]

Thanks once again folks for welcoming me back. it feels quite daunting to have to do it all again but it needs doing and I'm sure I want too ,scared of setting myself up to fail tho.

Mash x