I'm here finally!! I cannot believe that one year ago I just stubbed out my last cigarette. I thought it would be hard, but what surprised me most was the complete roller coaster of emotions I felt, particularly during the first 3 months. However, since then it hasn't been too bad. I still think about smoking from time to time and have had a few craves in the last few days but I do know that I will never smoke again!!!
The reason I will never smoke again is that for the first time since my late teens I am free!! I love this freedom. I don't have that horrible drug inside me, dictating to me constantly, making me leave the table at restaurants when I'm having a great time, making me stand out in the rain and cold, making me kill myself slowly and painfully. Instead I smell fresh, my throat is clear, I don't cough, my bank balance is a little heavier (as am I), I have more energy and time but most of all I'm FREE and it feels amazing!!!!
Good luck to you all and thank you to everyone for all the support you have provided over this past year. This forum has really helped me and I hope I can repay the favour by helping others.
Sarah - the penthouse's newest resident